This story is told from the perspective of a young man on the verge of adulthood. Reflecting on his early years he realizes that his presence was a source of feelings of both responsibility and pride for his parents.
His parents felt it was their job to teach him how to be a good person and to prepare him for the often cruel ways of the real world. They not only taught him how to act, but what to believe and what he should value.
He now sees his life as often consisting of a choice between rebelling against or fully accepting what they have said. In either case their words seem to dominate his world and he can never be certain if he ever really had any thoughts, feelings and desires totally separate from the concerns and priorities of his parents.
As he says, “and my eyes are clouded by the dreams they made me see. It’s so hard for me to see what’s them and what is me”
What is really me?”
While they may have prepared him in how to be successful in the world, he wonders if he lost a little of his humanity in the process. It is this reality which haunts him and has him doubt both his individuality and his ability to be a loving and trusting human being.
lyrics
Our Son 3/4/1975
Welcome little boy
Our illustrious toy
We’ll show you how to feel
From a boy to a man
Take me by the hand and
I’ll show you how to see
Give you all the dreams
handed down to me
See the man kneeling down
Praying to his god, praying to his god
Old man do you wonder
Is your child to be pure?
Try to make him follow all of the rules
Will he make you proud by acting the right way?
And my eyes are clouded by the dreams they made me see
It’s so hard for me to see what’s them and what is me
What is really me?
Will you make him bolder
by making him colder
Controlling all his feelings
A contrived machine
And my eyes are clouded by the dreams they made me see
It’s so hard for me to see what’s them and what is me
What is really me?
credits
from I'm Just Saying,
released September 5, 2014
Vocals Jim Guido
Guitar Jim Guido
Bass Jim Guido
Keyboards Jim Guido
Sax Jim Guido
Drums Kasa Dawkins
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