This singer of this song is engaging in the age old question of to be or not to be. While his life is full of success, fame and pleasure his heart feels empty and his life lacks any sense of meaning.
Despite all of his easy success and social status he feels life is passing him by and that he is missing something vital and important. For him at this moment, all of his life has been an opportunity lost. He is at a loss of how to have his life acquire meaning or a sense of deep satisfaction and feels hopeless and oddly alone while being surrounding by friends and adoring fans.
Is his hearing his own terrified disembodied voice a wake up call or a death cry? Is the recognition of emptiness his final realization or the beginning of him reconnecting with himself?
We are all able to succumb to our opportunities lost or use them as a source of growth and a means to seek and find more intimacy in life. We cannot control many of the experiences in our lives, but we do have a surprising amount of freedom in how we view, feel and internalize these events. As long as we breathe, feel and think we can grow, learn and become more intimate with ourselves, others and the world we live in.
lyrics
The Mundane Blues 6/8/01
Why am I so glum today?
Floating on this sunny day
There’s barely a cloud in the sky
Or a trouble to cast a shadow on my mind
Relaxing with no point of view
Chilling got my life on cruise
Got my jams and my remote control
Plenty of babes willing to rock and roll
It all seems so easy, yet why am I so queasy?
Maybe I just need to crash
Maybe I got to do something fast
But my mind won’t let it be
Behind my tinted shades not one senses something’s eating me
I really need to be where….
If I could I’d beat the…..
Where is the joy I used to…..?
Yes. I’d like to know
Loving is the only way
Tripping dispels the bleakest grey
A funny thought comes into view
A silly picture of a frantic cartoon
Yet the irony comes bleeding thru
My heartbeat pounds out the truth
I really can’t get away
From the clouds and the rain
Wreaking havoc on my brain
A strident call an endless refrain
“Help me,” I hear someone say
“I’m dying,” I hear it once again
I recognize the voice as my own
I feel dread in its stilted tone
I see the shock in the many faces
I hear the tic-tock in the silent spaces
I think I’m going to sleep
I think I’m going to weep
I think I’m going to…….
I know I really ought to………
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